Monday, March 31, 2014

a taste of honey

April 2014
this is the first update / next update
Krause Family Profile

Keri Krause (36 years old) Avery Krause (13 years old) Blake Krause (8 years old)
Claire Krause (4 years old) Demi Krause (1 year old)

I know this year has been really tough on Mom, with Dad being gone and all. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real. We've all been through so much and sometimes it seems like she is just ready to give up. She spends all day home with the girls and I know it's been difficult for her even though she tries to hide it. She has been feeling sorry for herself a lot lately. Sometimes when I get home a little early I can hear her crying in her room while the girls nap. I really wish there was something else I could do to help but I'm already doing as much as I can. Poor Claire, despite being potty trained, keeps having accidents. Mom can't seem to get her to use the potty when she needs to. 

Even though Mom works nights she always manages to wake up really early. She says it helps get her mind off of things but sometimes I think she isn't sleeping at all. After I get ready in the morning I try to help Mom out as much as I can. I usually wake Blake up so Mom can focus on getting the girls up. Since Dad died she's really relied on my help more than ever.

After Mom takes Demi downstairs, I decide to see what Claire is doing. My guess is that she's probably still snoozing. That little girl can sleep! Sure enough, when I enter the room Claire is fast asleep. As I walk over to her I can hear her say "Not yet Avie!" She groans as I pick up her anyway.

The first thing I do is take her to the potty. Luckily, she didn't have any accidents last night. I hurry to get her changed and downstairs before sprinting to the bus. I hope Blake remembered to eat breakfast!

As I run out the door, I hear Mom feeding Demi. Her voice sounds bright and cheerful, which has been pretty rare these last few months. Hearing her voice reminds me of the Mom I used to know - the one who was always excited and full of life. I hate seeing my Mom in so much pain. I keep telling her she should go and talk to someone but she refuses. I know it's been almost a year, but it's just so hard to see her so distraught all the time.

Usually about the time I am getting home from school, Mom is putting the girls down for their nap. I hope the girls will stay asleep long enough for me to get some homework done!

I meet Mom in the kitchen and we chat while she makes herself a grilled cheese before work. It feels really good to be able to spend some time alone with her. I used to tell my Mom everything but now that I'm a teenager, I haven't been sharing as much as I used to. When Mom asks me about this, I just shrug my shoulders and tell her "I don't know." I know I shouldn't lie but I couldn't bear to tell her the truth because I knew it would hurt her too much. The real reason she doesn't know what's going on in my life is because lately we haven't had any time to talk, she's always too busy taking care of the girls or working late nights. I feel like an awful daughter for thinking these things.

When the phone rings, Mom goes to pick it up. I really hope it's not work calling and saying they don't need her. The diner's been really slow lately and Mom has lost a couple of shifts already. I really wish she could find another job. Slim's is so gross! It's old, dirty and next door to a "gentlemen's club" - whatever that means! That side of town is so creepy. It makes me nervous that Mom is there at such late hours all by herself. When Mom calls me to the phone I know that it isn't work calling, but who could be calling me? I almost threw up in my mouth when Mom said it was Jessie Rowe. Why is he even calling me? I know we spoke a few times at school but we have nothing in common. We aren't even in the same grade so he can't want homework from me, can he?

My phone call from Jessie lasted almost 45 minutes, which in guy time is probably close to three hours. It was so strange. We really seemed to click over the phone. I thought for sure we would run out of things to talk about but it seemed like we could talk forever. I told him I had to go because the girls were getting up from their nap. I was really surprised when he asked me to go out on Friday night. No one has ever asked me out before and to say I was nervous about it was an understatement. Later on that night I got ready for bed and felt the butterflies lurking around in my tummy. I felt so many emotions - excitement, fear, joy, surprise - all at once. I tried to lay down but I couldn't sleep. When I heard Mom come in I ran to my door to tell her the exciting news but when she came up the stairs she looked awful - like she hadn't slept in days. It must have been a really rough night at the diner. I decided to wait until the morning to tell her.

The rest of the week was so slow! School dragged on and on. I started to feel really nervous about my "date." I hadn't seen Jessie at all and I started second-guessing things in my head. Did he really ask me on a date or did I make up the entire conversation? My stomach felt queasy as I headed to the cafeteria. Before I got there, Jessie called out to me. We walked to the cafeteria and he told me he would pick me up at 5 for our date. I felt a sense of relief when he mentioned it, realizing that the date had been real all along.

We took a walk down Main Street. I hardly ever have the time to come down here and I really enjoyed window shopping. I couldn't help but wonder if I would ever get married as we passed Something Borrowed. Of course, I know that day is far away in the future. 

We went to Sal's Italian Restaurant for dinner. The last time I came to Sal's was a few months before my Dad died. It was his all-time favorite restaurant. I kind of took it as a good sign when we walked in and one of the songs he always used to sing to me was on. Jessie's best friend Emmett was there with his girlfriend Amber. They were cuddling in a booth in the corner. I think my Mom would kill me if I was ever caught making out in a booth! I guess they are both lucky their Mom's aren't around to see it.

Emmett notices us and immediately invites us to come and sit with them. I didn't really know either of them all that well but we agreed to sit with them. We ordered our food. I got the penne ala vodka with a Caesar salad to start. My mouth started watering just thinking about it. 

All of a sudden, Emmett snapped at Amber. I must have totally missed it but Jessie told me later that she went in for a kiss and he out right rejected her. He literally pushed her off to the side and seemed really annoyed with her. She had a snotty look on her face until our food came out. I can't say I totally blame her though, that must have been super embarrassing for her!

After we ate, we debated about getting dessert. Amber and Emmett seemed to have made up by now, seeing as they were back in each other's arms. They really make an odd couple. One minute he's pushing her away and the next he's pulling her closer. She's the same way though, one minute she's mad at him and the next she's whispering in his ear. I don't know if I really enjoyed spending time with these two.

I would say that for a first date, this one was probably pretty good. At least we weren't the ones being awkward and getting into a little tiff for no reason. As we went to leave the restaurant, Jessie kissed me! I couldn't believe it! At first, I was taken by surprise and I didn't know what to do or say. Not that the kiss was bad, but I'm not sure if it was good either. It was my first kiss, after all. I really hope I didn't come off as a total loser. I was actually pretty glad that we would be riding home in separate taxis. The entire ride home I replayed the kiss over and over again. I know this is totally lame but I felt like I was floating. It was really bizarre but I liked the feeling. I wonder what will happen next, will he call me? I guess I will just have to wait and see.

Gameplay Notes
For some reason, poor Blake didn't make it into any of the pictures! He seemed pretty neglected this round :( Sorry Blake! Things were just so chaotic between Avery and Keri and taking turns caring for the girls that Blake kind of got lost in the shuffle.

I decided to take these two out on a date because randomly Jessie called Avery. I didn't even realize they knew each other but they must have mingled while I played the school lot. She had the wants to: 1. go on a date and 2. have her first kiss. Jessie also had the want to go on a date so I figured what the heck, and set it up. I wasn't expecting the second want to happen so quickly. I literally "Awwed" at my computer when they kissed. After they both got crushes on each other. I'm not sure where this relationship will go, if anywhere at all. I guess we'll just play it by ear for now :)


  1. I'm glass that she's still able to be a teen and do teen like things in spite all the responsibility at home

    1. Me too! I was excited when she got the phone call from Jessie because I didn't think she really interacted with anyone when I played the school lot. I guess I was wrong and totally missed their interactions!

      Thanks for reading and commenting!

  2. Aww, I feel sad for Avery, worrying about her mother and things at home. Like Apple Valley said, its nice that she can still get out and be a teen for a bit.

    1. This family's backstory is sad :(
      I am glad Avery is still able to have a positive attitude. She really holds her family together!

      Thanks for reading and commenting!

  3. Glad that Avery was able to go out and enjoy herself, I do hope that she will make her Mom talk and listen, looks like the grilled cheese was a great opportunity, and she might want her Mom's input on some things if things continue to escalate with Jessie. Teen boys can be so fickle too, look at Emmett... and her Mom's support for that might be nice. Claire will be off to school soon too, so it won't be so hectic at home once that happens.

    1. I hope she's able to get her mom to open up soon. Keri is almost in aspiration failure and all of her wants are unattainable at the moment. You are right about teen boys! I hope Avery talks to her Mom and listens to her advice. I bet Keri and Avery will be relieved when Claire is in school so they can breathe a little! Toddlers are exhausting!

  4. Like the others have said I'm glad that she gets to be something else besides the responsible big sister, especially with all the tragedy the family has been through. An interesting family and I'm really curious to find out what will happen to them all.

  5. She definitely deserves to enjoy some freedoms! At 13, she has more responsibilities than some adults I know!

    Thanks for reading and commenting!